Talking helps

So, woke up anxious as usual and keen to get to doctor's at 10.30. My doctor was brilliant. He listened, advised and calmed me. He has recommended that I have cognitive behaviour therapy for my negative thoughts and anxiety. Getting CBT in my area is like gold dust so I am certainly grateful! He helped me to see that alot of the anxiety is being caused by negative thoughts such as, it's the Effexor's fault I feel like this - I am obviously addicted - no one is really listening or caring, etc, etc. I felt so much better after talking to him and had a brilliant day! Got home feeling very positive and promptly drove over to Mum's (alone) for lunch before collecting dogs from groomers (alone). Felt a little anxious at Mum's at first but settled down and collecting the dogs was a breeze. Mind you, once home I was exhausted!

I made a conscious decision not to visit R.......... for a few days. I think his stroke has left me in shock (especially being the second friend in 3 weeks to have one) and seeing him shook me. I feel I need to concentrate on making myself stronger. It is selfish I know but he has plenty of support around him and me being ill doesn't help him at all.

Today J............. is coming for a few days and I'm really looking forward to it. The housework needs to be attended to so that's what I plan to do this morning! The sun is out and I feel positive. I think things are beginning to improve.