I woke up first at 3.30am but managed to get straight back to sleep and woke fully at about 7.00am. Immediately began my breathing exercises and then got up to do this blog.
Yesterday was dull and boring. The weather was very cold and windy and I really didn’t want to venture out. Still, the day has to be filled and the worst thing to do is just loll about. So we went to the Range to find some beads and wire for jewellery making. I began having an anxiety dip as soon as we got there. I didn’t really feel like going, which never helps, and my heart just wasn’t in it. I had a brief look around, couldn’t see what I wanted so left. Managed to pop into the Co-op on the way back although I was still feeling anxious and low (I refuse to say ‘depressed’).
D........... called round which was lovely. I felt tired and low but as her visit progressed I perked up a bit. When she left hubby was really bored and so we went to visit Mum which turned out to be a nice visit. I was feeling really tired! I think for most of the day I was on a low, not always anxious but the weather and lack of activity definitely affected me.
Did another module on the ‘living life to the full’ cognitive behaviour therapy website the doctor recommended. Also did some reading on anxiety tips. I have got some work on my hands now, I need to be proactive and work to reduce the anxiety so I have breathing exercises to do to begin with.
My memory is terrible at the moment! I guess the anxiety is compromising my concentration.
I need to give my days more structure and I am beginning to. Hence the blog each morning. I am driving a bit more which is a major plus but my life is feeling very limited at the moment.
So, today the plan is to get some housework done (dull but necessary!), do something creative, such as scrapbooking and tonight visit R................. which is going to take some guts but he wants to see me.
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