Progress!

This morning I woke up feeling anxious. Decided to take 2 Prozac and then went off to the doctors. My doctor is certainly proving himself! He spent time with me rather than rushing me and I explained how I was feeling and how bad I had been feeling. He (hooray!) wants me to take 2 Prozac daily which is a relief. He told me he had researched the withdrawal problems which is great news because now he can emphasise with me.

Basically there is no time limit on recovery and there is no best way of coping with it except to do as much or as little as I feel I can. This takes some pressure off me because I'm not 'wrong' if I need to be driven rather than drive, or if I feel I can't cope with work. If it works for me then its good. So, yey!, I don't have to push myself too hard and can allow myself to recover in my own time.

I have been stressing about driving to work, feeling unwell and then being unable to drive back. What will happen to my car? How will I get home? Who will look after me? Discussed this with him and he helped me realise that the car can be left, I can get a taxi and I can ask anyone at work for help. There is a solution to all my worries!

The day has passed with me continuing to feel anxious, although I feel happier in myself. I made the decision to talk to my boss and friends at work and tell them what is going on and I'm glad I did because they were very supportive and now I don't feel so isolated about it all.

So, I don't have to rush this process and I have to allow myself to recover at my own speed. It would have been wonderful just to be able to carry on as normal with no one knowing but I am not Superwoman!

I big plus is that I am now only smoking about four cigarettes a day and I have lost half a stone! I am sure this will all change as I get better but it's good!

Hubby is away on the boat for the night so it will be interesting to see how I cope at home alone. At the moment I am absolutely fine.

My most prominent symptoms at the moment are shaking and anxiety. It could be a lot worse and if I can cope with the anxiety especially then I am pleased with myself.