I was so bored stuck at home this afternoon which is good I think. Hubby revealed he wants us to do a couple of days on the boat and take it out. This should please me but I really don't want to do it. He wasn't willing to compromise so either I go and endure it (I know, and possibly enjoy it) or I stay at home alone and I don't want to do either. I could really do without pressure like this at the moment. A great wave of depression washed over me and I broke down and then got angry. All a waste of emotion because he didn't shift! So I went to the gym full of anger and anxiety, the first 20 minutes were a disaster with me shaking and feeling very frail but then I perked up and enjoyed the rest of the session. Back home my mood has dipped again and now I don't feel I can communicate with hubby at the moment. I guess he's getting frustrated with me and I can understand that. I hate not wanting to do stuff but it is a very strong emotion. It's not just not wanting to, I feel that I am unable to.

I think the fatigue I have felt has been replaced with anxiety. Oh joy! So, do I push myself or do I listen to my instincts? I don't know. When I feel like this it feels hopeless but I know I will perk up again. I just wish I knew how much longer I am going to feel like this.