I must listen to my instincts!

As I was saying, I woke this morning feeling a little weary and pushed this feeling aside to walk the dogs. Actually the walk was fine, I worried a little about getting panicky but nothing happened. Felt slightly irritated towards the end and wanted to go but stayed it out for our usual cuppa and teacake at the cafe. Once home I started feeling low and anxious and my stomach got upset. Okay, I thought, I can give in or push on. So what do I do? I push on! Erring on the side of caution as I was feeling grotty by now I took half a Diazapam to calm the anxiety. Wonderful stuff it worked a treat and I managed to (wait for it):- visit one of the flats with hubby and chatted with tenants, visited Mum with a smile on my face, went to Tesco (and I hate Tesco) and, athough by now I was knackered, went to B & Q. Got home exhausted and flopped in the armchair with the Sunday paper for a couple of hours before rousing myself and having a bath.

I should really have napped but for some reason didn't want to. Looking back I should have called it quits when my body told me, after the walk, but I didn't want to give in. I am pleased with all the things I achieved today, but I know that I only managed half of them because of the Diazapam I took. Okay, maybe the grottiness would have passed as I got on with things but I didn't really give myself the change to find out.

On a different note, I decided to Google 'post viral fatigue' to see if my symptoms matched. Really shouldn't have done that because they match pretty well! When I visit the doctor next, in a couple of weeks, I will mention it (without mentioning the Googling) just to get his opinion. I don't really think it applies to me but I guess I'm trying to find reasons for the way I'm feeling rather than just accepting that this is my body adjusting from Effexor to Prozac. I need to give it time and am so always so impatient!

Hubby is wanting to visit the boat for a couple of days next week and I'm not sure about it. He wants to take the boat out which makes me nervous at the best of the times. I am going to see how I feel and not be pressured into doing something that'll make me feel worse. I love going to the boat but not every week! I like being at home too!