Maintaining

Well, yesterday was a success - felt very nervous at first but continued and the anxiety faded. Mind you, when I got home I was exhausted! Very pleased that I walked a distance from the car with no ill effects. Did everything I wanted to do! Hubby wanted me to go to Tescos in the evening which would have been a real challenge but I cried off. I don't want to overdo it and go backwards and also, I hate Tescos!

Napped in the afternoon for 2 hours which was wonderful. It is wonderful to be able to nap again. Hubby really wanted to go to boat today and I hated saying no but I need to be careful not to overdo it. The travelling would have been too much right now. I know my limits and how far to push myself and, as I keep reminding myself, I must take baby steps.

Woke up this morning feeling anxious again, this is becoming a pattern. Today I plan to pick up Mum and take dogs out. Of course, I am feeling nervous which is daft but expected. I know all will go well and it is a case of building my confidence up again. My mood is pretty stable - I am worrying alot but I think this is due to lack of confidence rather than withdrawal.

I'm pretty sure I am over the worst now (I hope so!) and it is a case of gradually building up to normal functioning now. Where work is concerned, if I get through this week with no major hiccups then it will be plain sailing! I have a week off after that (half term) and so things will be back to normal, assuming I maintain where I am now.

I must find a way to control the worrying because this I am sure is contributing to the anxiety.

A major plus is that my heart rate has slowed down and my blood pressure is lower than before! Hopefully my blood pressure will get even lower and then I will have achieved what I set out to do initially. I really do think that coming off the Effexor is going to be beneficial in the long run. I'll worry about the Prozac when I've dealt with everything else!