Good friends are important

I had a terrible night full of anxiety and woke up at about 4 panicking. Took half a Diazapam which sorted that out and woke up in the morning determined I wasn't going boating and planning to spend the day visiting. Oh yes, I had worked myself up seriously! Told hubby of my plans which didn't please him but he still planned to go alone. Finally he agreed a compromise (which was all I wanted anyway) and off we set. Just before leaving I threw up (a good start!) and the drive started off with me feeling extremely anxious. We stopped at a petrol station which I decided I didn't want to feel like that so took half a Diazapam which calmed me down.

Got there feeling okay and our friends turned up. I told them what was going on with me and they were so supportive. Off we set on our journey and I felt okay but as we got further and further away I began feeling uneasy. When we finally reached our destination I crumbled. I was anxious and shaking and feeling very low. Then of course I broke down and cried. Our friends were wonderful (as was hubby) and comforted me. I was all ready to down another Diazapam but settled instead for a stiff gin and tonic which did the trick. We lunched and I began to relax and enjoy (yes, enjoy!) myself. By the time we got back to our mooring I felt great, tired but great. The evening was enjoyable and I had a couple of glasses of wine and an early night.

Next morning I woke up feeling great. Happy and relaxed. Wonderful! Mind you, I had a bit of a headache as did hubby (alcohol!) so we cleaned up the boat and set off home. The drive home was a breeze, I felt so relaxed.

We were both exhausted so had a (long) nap and yes, I woke up feeling relaxed! I think our gas heater on the boat needs some attention and this is what caused us both to feel off-colour because now I have a stuffy nose and we both have heavy heads. Not that I really care, I just feel so normal today! Roll on tomorrow!