Betterish

I feel so much better! Okay, my head is very fuzzy, sort of like a hangover, but I am no longer depressed which feels wonderful. Actually wanted to do stuff, rather than have to make myself. I drove to the gym nervously (had quite a bit of anxiety beforehand) and felt very shaky while exercising. My instructor is great and let me go at my own pace. It was really the drive home I was worried about because last time I had a panic attack driving back from the gym. Anyway I did it by repeating positive thoughts to myself ('I am growing in confidence with every turn of the wheels') - it sounds daft but it seemed to work!

Of course, once home the anxiety stopped, as I expected. I relaxed for a bit, listening to a self-hypnosis recording, which certainly relaxed me. After that I felt incredibly lazy which is a novel feeling for me at the moment.

Hubby is being more receptive today and athough he kept busy in the office we are definitely connecting more. Perhaps he has realised that it is worth taking the Effexor to see me feeling better.

A good, positive day.

Today I have the sponsored wax and at the moment I am not dreading it. If I can do that with a smile on my face I will know I am on the way!