Families!

I was feeling pretty okay until I began visiting members of the family. Needed to drop my neice's birthday present off so that was the first stop. The whole family seemed to be in battle with each other and so I left there feeling agitated and wound up. On to Tesco to buy a few bits and it was so busy, it was horrible. I managed to keep my anxiety under control but it was hard work and I was glad to get out. Next stop was to see Mum. She opened the door in tears, her dog had had a fit (he is epileptic) and had knocked her over and she now wants to rehome him. Hubby just rolled his eyes. By the time we got home I was totally fed up with everyone plus is was raining and windy and dark. Hubby was in a bad mood too.

I managed to sort out the dog problem, she is having a behaviour specialist visit next week, so Mum is feeling happier. My brother phoned and has fallen out with his mate so he's upset, in fact, I think everyone I'd spoken to was having a crisis of some sort! Both me and my husband are dreading Christmas. Hubby wants to go on the boat, just the two of us, but we have obligations to our parents.

We have a ball to go to on Saturday and so I tried on my dresses which, of course, all hang off me and look terrible so that really cheesed me off.

All in all a rotten, miserable day which left me feeling low.

This morning the sun is out (hurray!) and hubby has gone out to do some work. I am feeling a bit wound up, probably as a result of yesterday and a little concerned that maybe the Effexor isn't working as well as I thought. This is purely negative thinking I know. I keep reminding myself that it is perfectly natural to feel wound up after a rotten day and this is not a sign of me going backwards.

One thing yesterday made me realise is that I am so lucky to have a happy marriage while is seems everyone around me isn't happy with their lot. My depression is clinical and not circumstantial and there is a big difference so maybe I should give thanks that I have been shown this.