Achievement

Even better yesterday. Head felt very muzzy during the morning, coupled with a little anxiety. After lunch felt really sleepy but instead of laying around we took the dogs for a long walk. I was a little apprehensive about this because last time I took them out I felt terrible but actually I woke up a bit and had no anxiety! Once home C.............. came to visit which was lovely. She's very relaxing and never judges you.

On to the evening and the sponsored wax. I was determined to do it and managed to get myself focussed on getting on with it. Prepared everything well in advance and went. Had to wait around a bit beforehand which was annoying but didn't cause any anxiety. There were quite a few people at the venue and it was decided that I do the men's legs on the dance floor. Gulp! I started fine and then realised that everybody was surrounding me, watching! Another gulp! I did begin to feel anxious now - basically I was performing for an audience! Anyway, I laughed with them all and got it done, a bit wobbly on my feet but otherwise fine. I did it! And I managed to help them raise £800 so I am really proud of myself. Boy, some men have very hairy legs!

It really did me good to push myself to do that. I really achieved something and did it with a smile on my face. I am on my way back into my life.